Ash: The Lost History
Chapter 88 : The boarlets strayed further from the herd, into the white forest."They'll di

The boarlets strayed further from the herd, into the white forest.

"They'll die!" Ash felt her throat tighten. She began to sob, wretchedly; felt the muscles of her throat moving, felt her eyes dry and without tears; felt the hard stuffed canvas of the pallia.s.se under her back.

The tallow candle had burned down to a stump.

Rickard made a huddled lump, sleeping across the door.

"They'll die," Ash whispered, looking for orange-and-brown striped flanks, for trotting hooves, and for brown eyes shaded by delicate long, long lashes. She smelled the air for blood, or dung.

"I didn't kill it!"

I miscarried. I was beaten, and I miscarried.

Her eyes remained dry. If there was weeping, she could not do it. Aches and cold and bodily discomfort rea.s.serted themselves.

A voice said, - Making friends with the shy, fierce wild boar.

Ash relaxed back against the skins and furs. "s.h.i.+t. G.o.d sent me a nightmare, G.o.dfrey. My hands ..."

She strained to see them, in the dimmest light. She could not see if her fingers were stained with anything. She lifted them cautiously to her nostrils: sniffed.

"Why does He want me to see dead babies?"

-I don't know, child. You're presumptuous, perhaps, to think He troubles Himself to trouble your sleep.

"You sound troubled." Ash frowned. She stared around, in the all-but-dark; could not see the priest. .

-I am troubled.

"G.o.dfrey?"

-I am dead, child.

"Are you dead, G.o.dfrey?"

-The boars are a dream, child. I am dead. "Then why are you talking to me?"

In the part of her that listens, the part of her soul that she is used to sharing with a voice, she feels something: a kind of warmth. Amus.e.m.e.nt, perhaps. And then, again, the voice: -I thought that, since I could call boars, I could call you. When I was a boy, in the forest, using nothing but stillness, I made friends with those of G.o.d's creatures whose tusks could rip my belly in a moment. You are one of G.o.d's creatures with tusks, child. It took me so long to get you to trust in me.

"And then you went and died on me. Are you in the Communion of Saints, G.o.dfrey?"

-I was not worthy. I am tormented by great Devils! Purgatory, perhaps, this is. Where I am now.

"Close to G.o.d, then. Ask G.o.d, for me, why do the Wild Machines want Burgundy wiped out?"

A chill pain sliced through her mind. At the same moment, Rickard said sleepily from the door, "Who are you talking to, boss?"

He reached up from where he lay, in his blanket-roll, and pulled the tent-flap open. Moonlight slanted into the command tent. It shone on his face, his white breath, on Ash's clean hands, on her furs, clothes, sword, pallet.

No transition. No transition from dream to waking. Ash sat up, suddenly; none of the languor of sleep in her muscles. Her head was clear. I have been awake for more than a few minutes, she realised, and peered around: the tent remained dirty, familiar, corporeal. Rickard stared expectantly at her.

I have been awake.

"Oh s.h.i.+t." Ash bent over, gagging. Memories momentarily overwhelmed her. The single moment of vision, G.o.dfrey's body flopping back, the smashed and missing top of his skull, this stays with her, details imprinted on her inner eye. "Christus!"

Dimly, she was aware that Rickard put his head out of the tent and called to someone; that he left; that someone else came in, bustling - Ash could not have said how much time had pa.s.sed - and then she lifted her head and found herself staring at Floria.

"G.o.dfrey," Ash said. "I heard his voice. I heard G.o.dfrey. I spoke to him."

Silver and black in the moonlight, there are people moving outside the tent.

Floria's voice said, "If he's still alive, perhaps you dreamed of him where he is-"

"He's dead." Tears welled up in Ash's eyes. She let them fall, in the dark interior of the tent. "Christ, Florian, he had the top of his head smashed off. If you think I would have left him if he wasn't dead-!"

The long, slender fingers of the surgeon came out of the darkness, turning her face to the light. She felt no awkwardness, no fear of the woman's touch. Floria crouched in front of her, sniffed at her mouth - for wine, Ash realised -touched her cool forehead; finally sat back, and shook her head.

"Why should he haunt your sleep?"

"I wasn't asleep."

She made to get up, to call Rickard to arm her, since it was plain that moonrise was well advanced, silver light streaming down between trees.

Without warning, a sharp pain stabbed through her nose, eyes and throat. She choked. Her mouth distorted; tears ran out of her eyes. She dragged in a breath, sobbed tightly.

"s.h.i.+t. He's dead. I let them kill him."

"He died in the earthquake in Carthage," Floria snapped.

"He was there because of me, he was doing what I told him to do."

"Yeah, and so have half a hundred soldiers been, when you got them killed in some battle." The woman's voice changed. "Baby, no. You didn't kill him."

"I heard him-"

"How?"

"'How'?" Ash's wet eyes burned. The question stopped the sobs in her throat.

"When you say you hear voices," Floria observed, sardonic in the cold moonlight, "then I want to know what you mean."

Ash stared at her for a long moment.

"Rickard," she said abruptly, and stood up so quick that she left the surgeon kneeling at her feet. "Find my arming doublet; let's get moving. Now."

"Ash," Floria began.

"Later." She put her hands on Floria's shoulders as the woman stood up. "You're right, but later. When we're in Dijon."

"If you risk trying to get to the Faris, you might not get into Dijon!" More quietly, under the noise of Rickard rummaging in the baggage, Floria added, "Not a dream. A voice."

"After a dream. It was very like him." Ash was surprised at how much her composure returned, with the words. She reached out, and after a second's hesitation, Floria took her hands.

"In Dijon," Ash promised. "I'll be there. I'll come back."

Rickard blurted, from the dark corner of the pavilion, "Ash always comes back. That's what they've been saying since Carthage. That you'll always come back to the company. You will come back, boss?"

"Though all the army of the Visigoths lie between," Ash said lightly, mock-grandly; and was rewarded by a grin as the boy armed her: brigandine, sallet, and sword. She shrugged her cloak back over everything, stepping outside with Rickard and Floria, to be immediately overwhelmed in a moonlit wood by men with questions, sergeants coming for orders, and messengers shoving through the crowd.

She took a roll of paper from Ludmilla Rostovnaya, bending her head to listen while Rickard read it out to her under a horn lantern; nodded decisively, and gave a string of orders.

"I take it we're expected?" Floria del Guiz said, in a momentary break.

Without even time to realise her own searing relief, Ash confirmed: "Robert's still alive and giving orders, if that's what you mean. There'll be a gate open. Now all we have to do is get there ..." Ash spoke absently, peering through the crowds in the semi-darkness. "Thomas Rochester!"

She strode forward, picking up Angelotti on the way, pulling the two men into a huddle with her, in the freezing moonlit muddy woodland.

"I've told the lance-leaders and sergeants to come to you," she said, without preamble. "Angelotti, I want you with the guns and all the missile troops. Just get them inside the walls. Henri Brant and Blanche and Baldina will handle the train. Thomas, I want you leading the foot-troops."

His dark, unshaven face showed sudden confusion. "Aren't you leading the foot, boss? Won't you be back before we leave?"

"I'll be back before you're inside Dijon. You'll have Euen Huw and Pieter Tyrrell as your officers. Geraint will keep any stragglers under control - won't you?" she added, as the big Welshman plodded up to them through the mud.

She studied his unreadable features, thought for the hundredth time Perhaps nothing does go on behind that face, and watched him draw himself up; a large, dirty man in mail, cloak and archer's sallet.

"You know I don't agree with this, boss."

"I know, Master Geraint. You can disagree all you like, once we're in Dijon." She let her expression soften. "We can debate what we do as a company, after that. What you're doing now is going into the city. Right?"

Tension left his stance. "Right. And you'll be with the enemy commander, boss? Okay."

A glance from Angelotti's calm, Byzantine features made her feel more disquiet than Geraint ab Morgan's blunt acceptance.

"With the Faris," Ash confirmed. And then: "I'm the one that can walk into the Visigoth camp and no one will say a thing."

She reached up and touched her cheek, fingers taking scars entirely for granted.

"It's still her face. She's still my twin."

Message: #147 (Pierce Ratcliff) Subject: Ash/Carthage Date: 04/12/00 at 09.57 a.m.

From: [email protected] Pierce - I want to know what's going on! Are you still on the s.h.i.+p? What else have you found???

Are you sure - no, of course you're sure. _Visigoth_ Carthage! ! ! No wonder the existing site on land didn't match the description in 'Fraxinus'!

I don't expect you to answer lots of questions right now, but I've got to have _some_ information if I'm going to stop the book/ doc.u.mentary project being suspended.

Just ask Dr Isobel: _when_ can I pa.s.s on the news about her discovery to my Managing Director?

Oh my _G.o.d_, what a book we're going to have.

Oh, yes - is this the last of the 'Fraxinus' ma.n.u.script? Or is there one more section to come? Do hurry up and finish the translation! I swear I won't let it out of my hands!

- Anna * * *

Message: #150 (Pierce Ratcliff) Subject: Ash/Carthage Date: 04/12/00 at 04 . 40 p.m.

From: [email protected] Pierce - I'm stalling people.

Please get Dr Isobel to mail me. Just a sentence. Just 'we've found something amazing that verifies Dr Ratcliff's book' . Just something I can show Jon Stanley!

I may be out for a few hours tomorrow, as Nadia phoned me, but I'll take the satellite notebook-PC and check regularly.

We're probably okay till the end of the week, since I successfully managed to fudge everybody today - but if I go in Friday morning and find the plug's been pulled, I'm going to need convincing evidence that I can _show_ them.

It's been nearly a whole day, I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT WHAT YOU'VE FOUND ON THE SEABED. PLEASE!!!

Love, Anna * * *

Message: #256 (Anna Longman) Subject: Carthage Date: 04/12/00.at 05.03 p.m.

From: Ms Longman, >>Just ask Dr Isobel: _when_ can I pa.s.s on the news about her >>discovery to my Managing Director?

If _absolutely necessary, to the survival of Dr Ratcliff's book, you may disclose his 3/12/00 mailing to your Managing Director. This is on condition that it goes no further, until I am ready to put out a press release.

You may tell him that I endorse every word Dr Ratcliff has written. We have Visigoth Carthage.

I. Napier-Grant.

PART TEN.

15 November ad 1476 Siege Perilous1.

Chapter One.

Ash came down off the foot of the bluff in a clatter of clods of earth, into the exposing light of the moon.

Her eyes adjusted from night vision in the forest. The cold moon, clear of clouds, shone down on the road where she crouched.