Ash: The Lost History
Chapter 123 : "Maybe. But I wouldn't count on it. I heard them after the hart was dead.&qu

"Maybe. But I wouldn't count on it. I heard them after the hart was dead."

Robert Anselm grunted. "If we're very, very lucky, they were damaged . . ."

Picking up his words, Angelotti completed: "... if what happened when the hunt aborted their miracle hurt them, madonna. So: if they are damaged . . . they might recover tomorrow. Or it might take fifty years. Or we might be fortunate: it might never happen."

Florian looked questioningly at her. Ash shook her head.

"G.o.dfrey says he hears 'silence, not absence'. I can't make myself believe they're gone. They might not even be hurt. Who knows why they're silent? The only way we can be safe is to act as if I'll hear them again tomorrow."

A bare forty-eight hours of funeral, lack of sleep, and the sheer impact of the Burgundian court; all this made Florian seem subdued. She drew in a breath, twisting the bezels of the gold rings on her fingers, and looked up at Ash. Her expression was the same as it had been in the wildwood, soaked in hart's blood, staggered by the certainty of her knowledge.

"Would we have heard," she said, "if the sun had come up on the other side of the Burgundian border, in the past two days? Beyond Auxonne?"

"Oh, s.h.i.+t." Anselm's disgusted bellow made the remaining Burgundian n.o.blemen startle, and s.h.i.+ft back towards the hearth end of the chamber.

"Yeah, you got it. Euen. s.h.i.+t! Euen Huw," Ash explained to Florian. "He was out in their camp. He'd have brought the rumour back in with him. Something like that would be through the rag-head camp inside fifteen minutes!"

Ash shrugged. The steel of her armour squealed, rust sc.r.a.ping off with the movement.

"I'm being dumb. If that had happened, the Goths wouldn't care about being overheard by me, they'd use the Stone Golem to tell the Faris! And G.o.dfrey would have told me. If there was sun over Christendom, now, we'd know. It's dark. And if it's dark, the Wild Machines are still with us."

"Either that, and they're silent," Florian said, "or the darkness is permanent without them."

"Better hope not," Ash said grimly. "Or next year's going to be h.e.l.l."

"So nothing's changed. Whatever you're not hearing from the Wild Machines."

"Then why am I not hearing it!"

Angelotti ticked off words on his powder-black fingers with surprising, delicate grace: "No Duke. Perhaps a d.u.c.h.ess. Still dark. No a.s.sault on the walls. No threats from the Ferae Natura Machinae. If there is a pattern, madonna, I can't see it."

Ash ignored the crowd and clatter behind her.

"They may have reasons for silence. They might be hiding damage. How can we know? It's what I really hate," she said. "Making decisions, on not enough information. But there's never enough information. And you have to make the decisions anyway."

She took a breath.

"We need to ensure Florian's safety. That comes first. Burgundy or no b.l.o.o.d.y Burgundy, d.u.c.h.ess or no d.u.c.h.ess, Florian is what's stopping the Wild Machines-" She broke off. "Unless there is no need, any more-"

Florian smoothed her robe down, with long-fingered, spotless hands. The sheer linen of her veil concealed nothing of her expression, only misted it, gave it paradoxical clarity.

"Out in the desert," she said.

"What?"

"You forced them to talk to you. You told me."

Angelotti nodded. Robert Anselm's scowl, unconscious, was almost a snarl.

"So do that now," Florian said. "Find out. I need to know. Am I doing what Charles did? Am I the obstacle? Am I maintaining the real against anything?"

"When I tried it before the hunt - they'd learned to shut me out of their knowledge." Ash hesitated. "But they still spoke to me."

If I think about it, I won't do it.

There is a brief second of memory in her mind: of the lord-amir Leofric's face when she drew the words of the machina rei militaris into her soul; and of the bitter chill sand outside Carthage as she hits it, face-down, the first time that she did more than listen to the Wild Machines. When she wrenched knowledge from them, all in a heartbeat.

Inside herself, she prepares. It is more than pa.s.sive, more than emptying herself for voices to come; she makes herself a void that pulls, that compels itself to be filled.

Closes her eyes, shuts out the tower room, Florian, Roberto, Angeli; directs her speech beyond and through the machina rei militaris, hundreds of leagues away, in Carthage: "Come on, you motherf.u.c.kers ..."

And listens.

A faint sound, in the shared solitude of her soul; no more than an unwilling whisper, overlain by G.o.dfrey's anguish. A voice, woven of many voices, heard now for the first time since the hart lay b.l.o.o.d.y on the turf in front of her: 'PLAN WHILE YOU CAN, LITTLE THING OF EARTH, WE ARE NOT YET CAST DOWN.'.

The chamber wall felt bitter cold, cooling her scarred cheek where she leaned against the masonry.

"Let me take that, boss."

s.h.i.+fting, she realised Rickard stood beside her, prising her sallet out of her hands. She let him take it. With a sigh, she straightened, and let him unspring the pins on her pauldrons, and remove the rust-starred shoulder defences. He tucked the plates under his arm. Awkwardly, he unbuckled her belt and took sword and scabbard, staring at her anxiously.

"Boss ..."

She turned her back on him, moving with greater ease. The window's reflection showed her the chamber, Anselm sombrely speaking to the rest of the Lion escort as they left; Antonio Angelotti with one beautiful hand resting on Florian's arm.

I'd forgotten. Even after two days, I'd forgotten. How - their voices feel, speaking to me.

She reaches out. When she touches her fingers to the gla.s.s, it is bitter cold through the linen of her gauntlets.

From here, in this morning light, she sees Dijon's heterogeneous walls and towers from high inside the city. White-plastered masonry here, missile-smashed brick there; the blue-grey flint of a tower by the mills still pouring black smoke into the air. The city below her is a ma.s.s of red tiled roofs. South, between the double spires of a hundred churches, she can see the Suzon snaking away in a white gleam, between the wooded, grey limestone hills. The air is empty of birds. Distant church bells ring.

She can see nowhere - the banks of the western river, the ground beyond the moat, the road running up towards the western bridge - that is not blocked by newly turned earth. The Visigoths' ditches and banks, so small from up here; the pavises and mantlets set up along them barely visible. Distant cornicens sound in the enemy camp.

It is as if there is a precipice, now, a verge in her mind, beyond which is a drop more vertiginous than this one from the tower. And in that depth, the presence of voices.

Robert Anselm, his voice bluff with shock and mordant humour, said, "We'll take it there's no f.u.c.king good news, right?"

That's the first time he's seen me speak to the Wild Machines.

s.h.i.+t, Robert, I wish you'd come to Carthage!

"You got that right ..."

What she seeks for is the welcome numbness of action, her old ability to cut off self from feeling. The closest she can come is to maintain an interest in watching her hands, which are shaking.

"Madonna." Angelotti reached out and took her arm, drawing her with surprising strength into a walk. She stumbled across the oak boards, past the hearth; caught her balance as the Italian master gunner shoved her into one of the chairs lining the long table - and stepped back, gracefully, to give Florian his hand and seat the d.u.c.h.ess of Burgundy almost as swiftly.

"Eat," he said. "And drink - madonna Florian, there must be wine?"

With shaking hands, Ash unbuckled her gauntlets, dropped them heavily on to the linen cloth, and reached for one of the gold, ruby-studded goblets.

She was aware of Burgundians seating themselves - few now: the chamber very empty - and servers and panders complaining about lack of ceremony; but all she wanted was the thick sting of wine on her tongue. When served meats, she took the plate much as she would have done in camp, and did not realise until whole minutes later that she was stabbing up mutton not with her eating-knife, but with her b.o.l.l.o.c.k dagger.

Ah, that's mercenaries for you . . .

The taste of onions, and ortolan,11 and pease pottage in her mouth; their weight in her stomach; all this and she began to be aware of herself, her surroundings, the sheer solid reality of linen, table, armour, doublet, plate. She belched.

They can't reach me. No more than they could when I spoke to them before the hunt. All they can do is speak.

"I don't know if they're damaged or not." She spoke to Florian through a mouthful of frumenty,12 spattering the linen. "How would I tell? But they're there."

"Oh G.o.d."

Not like Florian to sound devout, Ash observed; and put down her spoon, and wiped her bare finger around the all-but-empty bowl, and sucked on the last sweetness as she looked at Floria del Guiz.

Florian said, "That makes me Charles Valois."

Ash, instantly grimly cheerful, said, "Look on the bright side. Now there's four hundred of us determined you're going to stay alive." She glanced down the table at Olivier de la Marche. "Make that the better part of two and a half thousand."

"It isn't a joke!"

"Don't think about it." Ash softened her voice. "Don't think about it. Think about staying alive. That's normal: everybody wants to do that. Don't think about what happens if you die-"

"The Faris does her miracle. The Wild Machines force her." Florian spoke in a strained undertone. "Burgundy's a wasteland. And then so is everything-"

"Don't think about it."

Ash closed her dirty hand over Florian's, tightening her grip until she knew she must be hurting the surgeon.

"Don't think about it," Ash repeated. "You can't afford to. Ask Roberto. Ask Angeli. If you think about what depends on you, yourself, you'd never be a commander, never make yourself crucial to any a.s.sault. Just a.s.sume you'll stay alive, Florian. a.s.sume that we don't care what we have to do to keep you that way."

In Robert's growling agreement there is only loyalty; Angelotti's swift glance has more in it of awareness, of Carthage - and of Burgundy, too, as his blond curly head turns, briefly looking at Olivier de la Marche, at Philippe Ternant, and the bishop.

"I wonder if you have to stay in Burgundy?" Ash speculated. "I wonder if we have to be in this siege?"

Floria lowered her voice. "Ash, like it or not, I am who they're going to call d.u.c.h.ess now."

"Yeah," Ash said, "I know. I don't see a way out of that."

This is my d.a.m.n surgeon we're talking about here!

She felt Florian's hand s.h.i.+ft, in hers, and released it. Red marks imprinted the skin. The woman took her hand back, flexing her fingers, in a gesture that somehow had nothing of the feminine about it.

Florian's gaze went to the great fire in the hearth, tended by the palace servants. "Jesus, Ash, I'm not a d.u.c.h.ess!"

"Say that again," Robert Anselm mumbled, grinning, and showing threads of beef caught in his yellowing teeth. "Barely a saw-bones!"

Florian's tone approached more normality than Ash had heard from her since the cathedral: "f.u.c.k you, Anselm!"

"Pleasure. Thought you weren't that way inclined?"

"I get more p.u.s.s.y than you do, you English poof! Always have."

"He's not a poof, madonna." Angelotti slid his hand under Anselm's ta.s.sets. "Worse luck!"

Robert Anselm clenched his fist, made as if to slam his armoured elbow into the gunner, and then sat back on his chair. "Go on, you little wop c.o.c.ksucker. Only time you're going to feel a real p.r.i.c.k!"

Florian, bright-eyed, and putting her elbows on the table, remarked, "I don't know - he is a real p.r.i.c.k, why shouldn't he feel like one?"

Ash gaped, cringed, and stared frozen-faced down the table at the Burgundian n.o.bility, her palms wet with sweat.

They stared back, faces bewildered.

Ash managed to show her teeth in a desperate smile.

Olivier de la Marche inclined his head in bemused courtesy.

Hang on. Her smile remained fixed. She replayed the quick-fire exchange in her head. Roberto started that one in English - Kentish English at that - and she followed him - thank Christ!

Without change of expression, she remarked through her teeth, "I can't take you b.a.s.t.a.r.ds anywhere!"

"Of course you can." Florian, her shoulder-muscles relaxed, reached out and touched her bare fist to Anselm's arm, Angelotti's breastplate. "Twice. The second time to apologise."

Ash saw their relaxation, the unspoken bond between them. Surgeon, gunner, and commander: all as it might have been in the company's tents, any time these five years. But now, seen for the first time after Florian's forty-eight hours of separation.

f.u.c.k, we needed that. But everything's still changing.

She grabbed for the goblet and held it up to be filled. Wine's steadying warmth burned down her gullet. "Okay! Okay, we need to plan what we're doing. Florian, you get any of the messages I sent up to the palace yesterday?"

"Eventually." Florian spoke with a kind of contained amus.e.m.e.nt that could hide any embarra.s.sment or panic that a surgeon-turned-d.u.c.h.ess might be feeling. "When they'd come through a dozen secretaries."

"s.h.i.+t, what a way to run a duchy!"

"Think yourself lucky. De la Marche says most of the lawyers went north with Margaret. Before Auxonne."

Ash leaned on the table. "You haven't left the Lion Azure. Not yet. Not until you tell me you have."

Florian's expression was momentarily unreadable.

"We need to know your status. What 'd.u.c.h.ess' really means - what sort of d.u.c.h.ess does Olivier de la Marche think you are? If there's one person in this city who holds command of the Burgundian military forces right now, it's him, not you."

Florian glanced towards Olivier de la Marche. Ash saw him interpret that as a summons; abandon his place. He walked up towards the head of the table. She thought she saw a slight unsureness as he looked at Floria, but de la Marche's lined face broke into a beam, seeing Ash.

"Jeez, he ought to like his d.u.c.h.ess, but I didn't know I was that popular ..."

Florian's face, under the sheerness of the veil, clearly showed exasperation. "Boss! You know what we've - what the company's been doing, these last two days. And you. Up on the walls. Backwards and forwards across the no-man's-land behind the north-west gate. Out there getting shot at."

"Oh, yeah, I was forgetting," Ash said dryly. "Not that we have a choice! h.e.l.l, even Jussey and Jonville have been giving us good back-up ..."