Villa Eden
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Chapter 196 : "Rise," said the Superior severely. "We suffer no vehemence here. It is
"Rise," said the Superior severely. "We suffer no vehemence here. It is to be hoped you yet remember this. Have you been in the church?"
"No," said Manna, rising.
It was long ere the Superior spoke. She probably-expected Manna to acknowledge her transgression; but Manna could not utter a sound. Every thing that she had experienced, and that was now within her, seemed to crowd upon her at once.
"I came hither," she began at last, "in order to leave no sorrow in your heart, Reverend mother, at my ingrat.i.tude. Your treatment of me has been most n.o.ble: you have"--
"No praise. Nothing about me. Speak of yourself."
"My memory must not be a grief to you. I came to beseech you"--
"Why do you hesitate so long? Speak out! What do you wish?"
"Nothing save your faith in the honorable struggle through which I have pa.s.sed. I could not do otherwise. I am betrothed to Eric Dournay."
"How, to whom? Did I rightly understand you? Is Herr von Pranken dead?
You are--But no. Speak!"
Faithfully and openly did Manna acquaint her with all that had happened, standing erect, and speaking in a firm voice. When she had ended, the Superior said,--
"So you have not come to do penance?"
"No."
"For what, then?"
Manna, grasping her brow, said,--
"Have I then not clearly confessed that I do not feel myself culpable?
I came in order to offer you thanks, heartfelt thanks, for the good which you did me in time of need, and my memory must not be a sorrow to you. You yourself once told me that the battle which I must fight with life would be a hard one. I have not sustained it, or rather--only, I implore you, be not wounded. Grant me a peaceful resting-place in your memory."
"Do you wish that, even now? Yes, that is the way with the children of this world. Even the suicides demand a consecrated grave. You are dead, and can have no grave in our holy ground. You stretch out your hand for reconciliation, but of what sort? Your hand is not clasped."
A lay sister entered, bearing a request from Fraulein Perini to be admitted into the presence of the Superior and Manna.
She entered.
"Have you any thing to say?" asked the Superior, turning towards Fraulein Perini.
"Yes. Here stands Fraulein Manna. I remind her before you, worthy mother, of a sacred promise which Fraulein Manna obtained from me."
"A promise? From you?
"Yes. You, Fraulein Manna, extorted from me a promise to hold you fast with all manner of punishments and of bonds, if the spirit of apostasy should ever gain a foothold in your soul. Did you not. Manna?"
"I did."
"And now?" asked the Superior.
"Now I belong to myself no longer. I no longer call any thing my own: no possession, not even myself. I cannot give in expiation what is not mine."
The three women stood long in silence. Finally the Superior said,--
"Have you confessed to the Priest?"
"No."
The Superior had turned away, and spoke with averted face:--
"We force you not. We bind you not. We could; but we do not wish to.
Go, go! I will see your face no more! Go! Alas, what a h.e.l.l you bear within you! The trace of your footsteps here shall disappear. No, I will hear nothing more. Go! Has she gone? Do not answer me. Dear Perini, tell me--is she gone?"
"She is going," replied Fraulein Perini.
"Where is my sister?" they suddenly heard Roland's loud voice saying.
The door was thrown violently open. Roland, quickly perceiving what had been going on, cried,--
"You have humiliated yourself sufficiently: come with me." He seized Manna by the hand, and left the convent with her.
When they were in the open air, Roland said he had been unable to endure the suspense any longer. He had feared lest Manna would allow herself to be maltreated, enduring unkindness as a penance.
"And that you must not do, even if you could bear it yourself, for Eric's sake. You must not allow Eric's betrothed to be insulted and abused."
How Manna's eyes shone as she gazed into Roland's glowing countenance!
"It is over," she said. "A whole world is swallowed up behind me. It is well that it is over."
Fraulein Perini remained some time longer with the Superior, then followed Manna. Sitting beside her in the boat, she said in a peculiar low whisper,--
"I was obliged to say that. I could not do otherwise."
Manna held out her hand, saying,--
"You only did your duty. I am not angry with you. Forgive me."
Manna knew not how she had left the convent. Only when she embraced Roland did her tears begin to fall. On their homeward journey she did not go below, but sat on the deck beside Roland, looking at the landscape with her great black eyes wide open.
CHAPTER IV.
TRANQUILLITY ON THE ROAD, AND UNREST AT HOME.
On his way to Mattenheim, Eric met the Major. He felt cheerful enough to tell him that he was scouring the country as if enlisting a corps of firemen; and, when he explained this meaning of his words, the Major needed no urging to agree to his part. He looked on the affair in the light of a court of honor, from which no one should shrink.