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Chapter 75 : Chapter 75I recalled the t.i.tle of the book . It was called "Experience of Death&

I recalled the t.i.tle of the book . It was called "Experience of Death" . This in itself was a weird t.i.tle . The book's name itself fitted the dream I had all this time . In that case, I died at least 30 times . I thought 'But why did it change? Why did I survive after the 1st attack and didn't wake up?'

I didn't know the answers to those questions but the more I thought about this weird book turning into dust the more certainty I had that the cause of my weird dreams was that book . Yet I had no clue as to how I could resolve those dreams . I knew of one recipe that was mind calming but the herbs used to make it were very rare and I haven't seen them on our travels so far . Even if I had that medicine, solving this dream problem was not guaranteed .

I had no way of doing anything, maybe besides learning that weird language the dark figure spoke . I already noticed differences after so many times listening to the same speech . I also knew that the dark figure was using some sort of skill in order to punch me or kick me . I didn't know why I sometimes survived and sometimes I would die instantly but I was certain of one thing . The figure was saying the same thing over and over again .

I would have to study the language more when I fall asleep, for now I needed to improve my other skills instead of worrying about stuff I was not able to affect . I first trained using the pose from the 1st modified diagram . To my surprise, I lasted 12 minutes before I had to stop . It seemed that the more I starved myself the stronger I could get . I was not keen to test this idea but I was happy that there was something beneficial in all of that .

I then started my training with the puppets . I needed to master the control of 4 puppets with 8 fingers excluding both thumbs . I trained for couple of hours like this and decided it's time for break . I called out to Sh.e.l.ly who was training its other senses "Sh.e.l.ly! It's time for food" . Sh.e.l.ly came over with the mask attached on its head without stumbling or hitting anything .

I took the mask off and said "Let's eat before we continue . We still have loads of meat left from the previous hunt and so we don't have to worry about that for now" . Sh.e.l.ly nodded its head and waited for me to start the fire and cook the food . When I cooked some meat, my hunger intensified . I was hungry a bit after all the workout but the moment I saw cooked food, I became like a starved wolf .

I took the mask off and said "Let's eat before we continue . We still have loads of meat left from the previous hunt and so we don't have to worry about that for now" . Sh.e.l.ly nodded its head and waited for me to start the fire and cook the food . When I cooked some meat, my hunger intensified . I was hungry a bit after all the workout but the moment I saw cooked food, I became like a starved wolf .

I alone devoured enough meat to cover 2 wolves while Sh.e.l.ly as if competing with me ate enough meat to create 3 wolves . I cooked the rest of the meat that was leftover in my bag . I couldn't take all the animals we hunted because although the bag could probably fit this much stuff inside, I would have to carry this bag with me all the time and it was as heavy as the amount of stuff stored inside . I also found out something interesting about the bag Nick left for me . The food inside could stay fresh for a longer period of time . The effect couldn't last for very long but it could preserve the fresh meat for couple of more days without spoiling it whatsoever . This would be very useful in the future if we are short on food . After we ate out food I started to wonder 'Where does all the food go after I ate it? It didn't go straight to my stomach . It was as if the food disappeared even before it got there' .

I couldn't get fatter either . I was always skinny like a walking skeleton . It was as if the food changed into pure energy and was absorbed by my body instead of depositing in my stomach . I also didn't know how Sh.e.l.ly could eat even more than I did . It spent a lot of energy when moving very fast but surely a wolf that weighted about 30 kilograms or more would be more than enough for a turtle the size of half a metre .

I didn't expect an answer but I asked anyway "Sh.e.l.ly, how come you can eat so much and not get bigger? I also eat so much and stay pretty much the same . How is that possible?" . Sh.e.l.ly looked at me confused as if I was asking the most obvious question in the history . Sh.e.l.ly just looked down and didn't know how to respond . After a while Sh.e.l.ly draw something on the ground and it seemed to say that it was always like this .

I didn't expect an answer but I asked anyway "Sh.e.l.ly, how come you can eat so much and not get bigger? I also eat so much and stay pretty much the same . How is that possible?" . Sh.e.l.ly looked at me confused as if I was asking the most obvious question in the history . Sh.e.l.ly just looked down and didn't know how to respond . After a while Sh.e.l.ly draw something on the ground and it seemed to say that it was always like this .

I looked at Sh.e.l.ly and thought 'Indeed, it was always like this since I started to travel' . It all started from that rock lit by moonlight and continued through to my slavery and now those dreams . I thought 'If I'm supposed to be like this then so be it . I shall accept this as normal from now on' .

When I thought of this like that and when I came to that realisation, something inside of me calmed down and I felt more at peace . I continued on with my training until late evening and when we took breaks for food, I would always store some leftovers in case I need it after the night's sleep . We were also fortunate that these parts were full of animals because otherwise we might not be able to get food that easily .

In the evening, I tried to modify the 2nd diagram . I knew it would take me much longer compared to the 1st diagram . I needed much more experience in order to predict what would happen when something was changed in the pose . It would take a long time but I had the 1st diagram to practise and master . I was in no rush to complete the modification of the 2nd diagram but I wanted to at least put in some work and maybe I would be able to figure it out sooner rather than later .

After a while of thinking and changing the pose, I fell asleep and braced myself for the weird dream that was about to come . When I opened my eyes, I stood in front of the dark figure that started to talk away . I listened attentively and looked at any gestures the dark figure did . I looked and listened for anything that would give away what types of words the dark figure was speaking .
In the evening, I tried to modify the 2nd diagram . I knew it would take me much longer compared to the 1st diagram . I needed much more experience in order to predict what would happen when something was changed in the pose . It would take a long time but I had the 1st diagram to practise and master . I was in no rush to complete the modification of the 2nd diagram but I wanted to at least put in some work and maybe I would be able to figure it out sooner rather than later .

After a while of thinking and changing the pose, I fell asleep and braced myself for the weird dream that was about to come . When I opened my eyes, I stood in front of the dark figure that started to talk away . I listened attentively and looked at any gestures the dark figure did . I looked and listened for anything that would give away what types of words the dark figure was speaking .

After a while, the dark figure stopped talking and ran at me in order to attack . I was paralyzed as usual and awaited the blow . The dark figure arrived and punched with its fist that was covered in dark smoke . "Boom" I received the blow and flew couple of metres back . I was still alive because the dark figure punched me in my stomach .

I looked down and again saw a gaping hole in my stomach . I didn't try anything else and simply listened to and looked at the dark figure . A short while later, my consciousness started to fade and I could barely stand in place when the dark figure stopped talking again and ran towards me with another punch .

I didn't survive this blow and the lights went out . When I opened my eyes again, I was greeted with the same scene . I thought 'It's time to suffer, I guess' . I recalled the t.i.tle of the book . It was called Experience of Death . This in itself was a weird t.i.tle . The books name itself fitted the dream I had all this time . In that case, I died at least 30 times . I thought But why did it change? Why did I survive after the 1st attack and didnt wake up? I didnt know the answers to those questions but the more I thought about this weird book turning into dust the more certainty I had that the cause of my weird dreams was that book . Yet I had no clue as to how I could resolve those dreams . I knew of one recipe that was mind calming but the herbs used to make it were very rare and I havent seen them on our travels so far . Even if I had that medicine, solving this dream problem was not guaranteed . I had no way of doing anything, maybe besides learning that weird language the dark figure spoke . I already noticed differences after so many times listening to the same speech . I also knew that the dark figure was using some sort of skill in order to punch me or kick me . I didnt know why I sometimes survived and sometimes I would die instantly but I was certain of one thing . The figure was saying the same thing over and over again . I would have to study the language more when I fall asleep, for now I needed to improve my other skills instead of worrying about stuff I was not able to affect . I first trained using the pose from the 1st modified diagram . To my surprise, I lasted 12 minutes before I had to stop . It seemed that the more I starved myself the stronger I could get . I was not keen to test this idea but I was happy that there was something beneficial in all of that . I then started my training with the puppets . I needed to master the control of 4 puppets with 8 fingers excluding both thumbs . I trained for couple of hours like this and decided its time for break . I called out to Sh.e.l.ly who was training its other senses Sh.e.l.ly! Its time for food . Sh.e.l.ly came over with the mask attached on its head without stumbling or hitting anything . I took the mask off and said Lets eat before we continue . We still have loads of meat left from the previous hunt and so we dont have to worry about that for now . Sh.e.l.ly nodded its head and waited for me to start the fire and cook the food . When I cooked some meat, my hunger intensified . I was hungry a bit after all the workout but the moment I saw cooked food, I became like a starved wolf . I alone devoured enough meat to cover 2 wolves while Sh.e.l.ly as if competing with me ate enough meat to create 3 wolves . I cooked the rest of the meat that was leftover in my bag . I couldnt take all the animals we hunted because although the bag could probably fit this much stuff inside, I would have to carry this bag with me all the time and it was as heavy as the amount of stuff stored inside . I also found out something interesting about the bag Nick left for me . The food inside could stay fresh for a longer period of time . The effect couldnt last for very long but it could preserve the fresh meat for couple of more days without spoiling it whatsoever . This would be very useful in the future if we are short on food . After we ate out food I started to wonder Where does all the food go after I ate it? It didnt go straight to my stomach . It was as if the food disappeared even before it got there . I couldnt get fatter either . I was always skinny like a walking skeleton . It was as if the food changed into pure energy and was absorbed by my body instead of depositing in my stomach . I also didnt know how Sh.e.l.ly could eat even more than I did . It spent a lot of energy when moving very fast but surely a wolf that weighted about 30 kilograms or more would be more than enough for a turtle the size of half a metre . I didnt expect an answer but I asked anyway Sh.e.l.ly, how come you can eat so much and not get bigger? I also eat so much and stay pretty much the same . How is that possible? . Sh.e.l.ly looked at me confused as if I was asking the most obvious question in the history . Sh.e.l.ly just looked down and didnt know how to respond . After a while Sh.e.l.ly draw something on the ground and it seemed to say that it was always like this . I looked at Sh.e.l.ly and thought Indeed, it was always like this since I started to travel . It all started from that rock lit by moonlight and continued through to my slavery and now those dreams . I thought If Im supposed to be like this then so be it . I shall accept this as normal from now on . When I thought of this like that and when I came to that realisation, something inside of me calmed down and I felt more at peace . I continued on with my training until late evening and when we took breaks for food, I would always store some leftovers in case I need it after the nights sleep . We were also fortunate that these parts were full of animals because otherwise we might not be able to get food that easily . In the evening, I tried to modify the 2nd diagram . I knew it would take me much longer compared to the 1st diagram . I needed much more experience in order to predict what would happen when something was changed in the pose . It would take a long time but I had the 1st diagram to practise and master . I was in no rush to complete the modification of the 2nd diagram but I wanted to at least put in some work and maybe I would be able to figure it out sooner rather than later . After a while of thinking and changing the pose, I fell asleep and braced myself for the weird dream that was about to come . When I opened my eyes, I stood in front of the dark figure that started to talk away . I listened attentively and looked at any gestures the dark figure did . I looked and listened for anything that would give away what types of words the dark figure was speaking . After a while, the dark figure stopped talking and ran at me in order to attack . I was paralyzed as usual and awaited the blow . The dark figure arrived and punched with its fist that was covered in dark smoke . Boom I received the blow and flew couple of metres back . I was still alive because the dark figure punched me in my stomach . I looked down and again saw a gaping hole in my stomach . I didnt try anything else and simply listened to and looked at the dark figure . A short while later, my consciousness started to fade and I could barely stand in place when the dark figure stopped talking again and ran towards me with another punch . I didnt survive this blow and the lights went out . When I opened my eyes again, I was greeted with the same scene . I thought Its time to suffer, I guess .